Tits and Hair
Posted on the 21st of September 2008 at 13:42 by Bodil
It’s been a while since I thought about passing. Actually, I seem to pass so well now that passing probably isn’t the correct term anymore. A glance, a cursory examination, even a long chat usually won’t give me away to anyone but the exceptionally observant. It’s come to the point where I can focus on being rather than passing–and indeed, it’s not like I’m actually trying to fool anyone. I am what I am, if not entirely what I appear to be.
So, with regard to being instead of passing, I’ve begun thinking about getting rid of the props. There are still two items left in what you could call my “disguise”–the wig, because my hairline is growing back with the alacrity of a glacier, and the silicone padding, because my breasts are sprouting with the same geological urgency. Things are obviously happening in both areas–to the extent that I can now fake a quite convincing cleavage–but the progress is so slow it’s going to be several years until either becomes acceptable enough to my self-image that I’ll be able to throw away the props. The hairline, in fact, might never improve to the point where it stops looking a bit off for a girl.
In my impatience to reach the point where I can actually feel genuine, I’ve been thinking about ways to hasten the process. Obviously, a full HRT regimen with oestrogens and heavy anti-androgens could quite possibly take me where I want to be within months, especially in the matter of cleavage, but, as previously mentioned, this isn’t an acceptable option to me.
The solution to the breast issue is obvious: breast augmentation surgery. A boob job, quite frankly. I’m going to ignore the traditional objections, which I’ve certainly voiced on occasion myself to girls considering this, because you’d better believe it’s not just in my head. They really are too small, and arguing this is just silly.
I’ve got the added advantage that my breasts are still developing, and so breast tissue can be expected to grow around the implants, making them look and feel quite genuine. I’ve also got the advantage that, if you’ll just give me six months, I’ll actually be able to afford it, even in Norway, out of my cash reserves. So, next summer, I’m getting a boob job.
Now, about the hairline… I’m a bit lost here–I believe acceptable solutions probably exist, I just don’t know enough about them to make an informed decision. My requirements, though, are simple enough: I’ve got to be able to sleep in it, whatever it is, without it coming off.
I’ve come across a few ads about lace wigs, which look halfway promising. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to find one that works out for me, though, or even if these things work at all. Given the cost and uncertainty, this is not something I’m going to experiment with on eBay. So, I’ll need to find a professional who can help me out. Lace wigs, extensions, whatever, as long as it stays put and looks real. I’ll be very happy to accept suggestions here. Just, please, remember that I’m not looking for any instant hair growth formula–I’m already on the best cure for androgenic alopecia there is, and it is growing back; I need something for the meantime. Please help!
